I won't shiver in the cold
I won't let the shadows take their toll
I won't cover my head in the dark
And I won't forget you when we part

Collapse the Light Into Earth

I won't heal given time
I won't try to change your mind
I won't feel better in the cold light of day
but I wouldn't stop you if you wanted to stay

Collapse the Light Into Earth

all alone.

the boyfriend left me.
he doesnt love me any more.
i havent slept since wednsday.
i cant eat, it just comes back up again.
it feels like i'm dying.
last night i actually concidered ending it all, just to make the pain stop.
it hurts to breathe, my chest feels like somone is stabbing me over and over again.
i dont know how to go on living without him.
i dont know how much more i can take.

Working on myself.

Is an absolute bitch.
No, really. B-I-T-C-H.
Wich, incidentaly is how I've felt a lot lately to.
I dont set out to, but way to often in the last few weeks its where I've ended up.
I know I have a strong tendency to get defensive and feel attacked, even when people are just trying to help me.
Yet another thing about myself to work on. *sigh*
Most of all though, I'm in a constant feeling of having the rug pulled out from under me, or that split second before you tumble down the stairs.
I'm right on the edge of breaking down and cant pull away from it.
I dont want to think about what would happen if I fall, because it scares me shitless.
Everything feels like its crumbling, including me.