Pity me, sad and tragic creature.

yep. i'm rolling in it, and i dont care.
i feel really fucking sorry for myself.
i've been trying to save up for a new sewing machine for two years now.

http://www.amazon.com/Brother-SE350-Computerized-Embroidery-and-Sewing-Machine/dp/B001AQER4I/ref=sr_1_25?ie=UTF8&s=home-garden&qid=1241445275&sr=1-25

it never happens, and at this point i dont think it ever will.
the price of it has gone down a huge amount, but since amazon dosent send stuff like that to norway, i have to use a shipping-company,
and they want about as much as the machine costs to start with to mail it here.
that machine would do so much for me its not even funny at this point.
i have so many plans and ideas that are just waiting for me to get a proper machine, but i might as well just scrap them all.
so i feel really fucking sorry for myself. and it feels kind of nice right now.
just for once in my life i wish something could go my way and i could get something nice that i need.