ok.. Time for another round of honesty i guess.
Subject: Girls.
i am one, why the hell cant i understand them!?
As most of my non-existant readers know, i'm bisexual.
i have a hard time falling in love, (love involves trust, big nono.), but by the gods i fall in lust very easy.
And all the girls i fall for (every last single one of them!) are girls that don't even know i exist, will never look my way and are completly out of my league.
Example, the beautiful redhead that worked at the store where i used to live. i shopped there almost every day, just to see her,(stalker much?) and tried to work up the courage to say hello.
And one day she was gone.. and i'd wasted another chance.
But.. i've been with girls the observant reader will point out.
Yes.
And every last one of them i ended up running away from, pushing away or fuck up somehow.
i'll never understand why someone would want me.
So when someone actually does, my paranoia kicks in bigtime.
All i can think is, What does this person really want?.
It cant be me, so it must be some hidden motive.
i know its bullshit(hopefully), but that little voice is always there.
Maybe i just haven't met the right girl. maybe somewhere out there is a girl that can make all the little voices shut the hell up.
i'd like to meet her.